people like me. i know they do. they like me but im not good for them. im a piece of chocolate cake. or a fresh baked batch of cookies. or maybe a strawberry shortcake. im good, but not good for you. for anybody. but the thing is, and it gets me everytime, is that im good for you. only you. and you. people like you. you can tell they do. but your not good for them. except for me. your good for me. your good for me in a way that nobody else is. you are. and i might not always like you. in fact, most of the time(or atleast in the past) i've always despised you. but you've always been good for me. even when i didn't believe you were. we fit. and we are perfect in this completely imperfect way. and it just works. we work.

i don't understand. who i am, or what im doing here. im just here. with you. doing whatever we do when its me and you. and we let the world soak into us. but we don't understand. why we were chosen. why we like the feeling. of experience, of life. we are just humans, complicated animals. roaming the world. letting the leaders make the decisions for us. we really aren't that important. and deep down, we know we never will be. but when we're together, it's like we have a future. like there is a reason for life. like what im doing today, will get me somewhere. and maybe thats the problem. we live off lies. one big fucking lie. and its ok for awhile. until its not.
until you go away.

Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart, your heart
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love, your love
As well as your folly
And can you kneel before the king
And say I’m clean, I’m clean

But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart

A white blank page
and a swelling rage, rage
You did not think
when you sent me
to the brink, to the brink
You desired my attention
but denied my affections, my affections

So tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart
Oh tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart

Aah, aah...
Lead me to the truth and I
will follow you with my whole lie
Lead me to the truth and I
will follow you with my whole lie
Aah, aah...

mumford and sons- literally wicked awesome.