i just don't know how to feel anymore. its like i give and i give and i give. i give so much of myself, i don't feel like i'm living my own life. its never about me, its always about everybody else. and this may sound selfish of me, but i want to live my life now. i want to do my thing. i want somebody to give two shits about my problems. oh don't get me wrong, i love helping people. i love being there for people. i love that, its a big part of my life. and i would never ever want that taken away from me. but sometimes, its just i want to be selfish. i want somebody to make me feel good. i want happiness, i want to feel wanted. i want to be needy. i want somebody to deal with me sometimes. to help me. i can't do it on my own. i just can't. and everybody fails to see that, or at least fails to care. i just want to trust somebody. i want somebody to care. i want somebody to understand. ME ME ME. i want it to be about me. is that really too much to ask?
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