i feel bad about everything. im so sorry. im sorry i ever said anything. because i never wanted this to happen- i never wanted anything to happen. i wanted perfection to reign true. thats all i've ever wanted. and its sick, to expect perfection out of yourself- its sick. and maybe i'm sick, and maybe its time i start telling the truth. and the thing is- i have. i have really started, after a long time of not, i have started to tell the truth. the real truth. the raw truth. the truth that everybody-including me- is just a little bit afraid of hearing. but im saying it. because im sick of the fake smile. im sick of mine, and im even more sick of yours. and maybe i just dont understand you, and maybe i never will. maybe, we are just too different. is there even such a thing? doubtful. i think what i-we-you need to do is unite. we need to unite. we have to stop taking sides, because im done fighting. and i think you are too. i need to find people that matter. people i can spill my guts to and forget the rest. and i think, slowly but surely, i am. and i think after all this time of not having faith in people, i do again. faith is the most powerful thing you can have in somebody or something. and i have faith in you. i have faith that your going to be ok, that im going to be ok, that we're going to be ok. and you can shake your head and laugh at me and call me crazy, but i do. i have faith in you. and im sorry you ever felt hurt.